It's been a weird morning.

This is not my fault.
I am just impatient.
Really, really impatient.

I am five years old, that is my mantra.

Talk to me! Talk to me! Talk to me!
That's all that I want.

I just....
want to hangout
and talk.


Is that too much to ask?




And it seems that I get texts from everyone beside the one person I want to text me.
Isn't that always the case? haha.

This is nothing. Don't worry about it.

So, recently my friend and I had a rather long talk about stuff and he was like describing this cool concept of like The Five Languages of Love or something. He was saying the five things are (in not particular order)
Touch
Service
Time
Gift giving
And compliments

He said people generally have a main two or three
And he was making me guess his three
And he puts them in order.
So, I guessed Time, and that was #2
And then he told me to guess his #1 and he said that it's #1 but he is very reserved about it.
It was touch, which I guess.
And I think the other was service.
But then later when we were saying goodbye but still talking about a couple things.
He like gave me a hug.
And proceeded to start laughing to himself, which he does a lot.
And I was like, "what?"
He said, "did you know you have only initiated like 2 hugs between us?"

Cause I'm not much of a 'touch' person
Not that I don't like hugs and junk.
But I don't initiate them generally.

But if his #1 is touch and he hugs me..... does that mean anything?
?!
Ya know?
I think he likes me, but he just.... can't admit it, or doesn't want to, or something.
And like tonight, when we were disscusing junk, and concepts he was like... tapping my leg at points and my shoulder..... and I DONT KNOW IF THAT MEANS ANYTHING!!

Ugh.

It is really annoying.
Because he is like, "You are going to be thinking about things tonight and not going to be able to sleep right away, I know it. Blah, blah, blah."
And I am a stubborn jerk and say "nu-uh" like a five year old

But it is SO true. And that annoys me too haha.

Basically, he annoys the crap outta me.
But I just can't wait to argue again later....
But he is always in stack 2, talking with stupid people

Ughhhhh

And he hardly comes over here because I was being weird the day after halloween party and kept texting him more then I normally would and I just needed to be normal
And I couldn't that day and he kinda ignored/avoided here for a while.
But things are pretty much back to normal.

I just shouldn't .... eh whatever.... it just sucks.
Because ....
But at the same time....
And that is annoying as well.

But even though we argue and annoy each other and believe totally different things, I feel like we click and kinda get along dispite that or because of that maybe. idk.

I don't need peace.
Or to be friends with Jesus.
Jesus can suck it.
Yeah.
End rant.

What the fuck.

I am SO tired.
All I want to do is nap, I need to nap.
I got zero sleep last night and I need to study for my linguistics test tomorrow and my stupid film group doesn't text me about anything expect at the very last second.
And they have planned to film, tonight.
Of course.
I hate them.

But right now, all I can't think about is why the fuck is my stupid roommate pissed at me?
I have no idea what I "did"
Or didn't do, or said or whatever.
She has sleep somewhere else the last two days and has been completely ignoring me for three.
And for seemingly no reason.

I can't think of anything I did.
She is just being really fucking immature and childish, and if she has a fucking problem with me, SAY SOMETHING.

But nooooooooooo.... she can't do that.
Because she is dumb.

If you can't tell, I'm a little peeved.
Just a wittle.

You don't know this, but I just rolled my eyes.

Yeah....


See, and what is going to happen is I am going to text her asking "whatthefucks up with you?" which I shouldn't have to do.

Like, literally, I can't think of anything that I did to put her dumb yoga pants in such a twist.




Whatever. I am going to take a nap and ignore her for another day.
People are dumb.

Halloween Explanation part 1

First off, I hope nobody I know ever reads this.
But I feel the need to document this shittt.
So. Here. I. Go.


You know, I was so excited for Halloween weekend.
I had spent money on a slutty costume. Money.
I was Princess Peach :)

And Natalie was going to spend the weekend, well, I had to twist her arm to get her to come up for ONE day but whateverrr.

But anywho, we planned a little par-tayyy
And it was fun. Sour Green Apple Pucker.
I was having fun, I've never played King's Cup before.
But we forgot to get ice.
And so Nick, Natalie and I went to Haggen to get ice and more soda.

I am just going to be honest right now, I have had a ya know.... crush on Nick for a while. Ya know, whatever. I mean, just a little one. But I know he is like crazy religious and whatever so I just think of him as being gay and it is such a tragic waste. And that has been that.
But, I dont know. He like, carried my bags from Haggen. And stupid little things like that, that probably dont actually mean anything.

Ughhhhhh.....

I don't even want to tell this story anymore.

This is just making me kinda upset for some reason.